Loveless (18+)
Ever since I was a little kid, I never thought about a fairytale romance. I was shown porn by a friend when I was about 5 (they were 6 I think at the time) on good old unrestricted YouTube. What I remember of the video as a very close up image of a woman giving a man a blow job. It was messy, loud, and I remembered feeling fascinated yet very uncomfortable. At the time i called them “sex videos” and i remember telling my dad all about it when he asked what the two of us had been up to, and he got incredibly angry at me for heavens knows why. I hadn’t been the one looking up sex on the computer, was I? What followed was a childhood of a very sexualized mindset throughout my childhood. I was 8 looking up dirty jokes on google images for entertainment, and watching previews for 18+ Movie on iTunes just to pass the time. I read Fifty Shades when i was 13 just because i was curious, then again at 15 and a few more times after that. I started seeking out porn on my own when i was ...